December 2009
READY
for the fuckin NEW YEAR!!!
2009 sucked. And I’m not so sure I’m ready for 2010, but I’m definitely done with this year.
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Hope
you all got some good things for christmas (: or any other holiday you celebrate. I got some good things, one of the best ones was probably this new red down comforter though. Its so nice! and really soft black sheets. and clothes!
Tonight is a bit lonely though…but at least its raining. I reeeeealllly enjoy listening to the rain. Its so relaxing.
And now I’m watching something...
“The peace of hello
will finally tranquilize
the ache of goodbye.”
– Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott) (via quote-book)
i really need this peace of hello sooon. this is starting to really get to me.
Ahhhh
I’m so fulll!! But thats so much better then being hungry….my appetite is returning, i think (: which is AWESOME! I love food way too much.
Today has been chill so far, about to go downtown Santa Cruz and have an even more chilll day fasho.
shower time!
Well, well, well.
that was definitely interesting enough….now lets see where this goes. definitely need to remember, GIVE IT SPACE.
life is alright…less sad, more monotone. but thats better it seems like. i’m more content lately then i have been, so that says something. well…content as i can be. content isnt really what i would call it, but its a lot more then it was.
I CANT WAIT FOR...
ok it made me laugh out loud.
rachaelrevolution:
inflightradio:
the longer you watch, the funnier it gets.
HAHA rachael, you’re right.
i always laugh at my cat when he does that happy paw thing when hes standing.
Ooooh
the possibilities of things…. :]
i hope tonight turns out to be interesting. i really would like some excitment in my life for once.
Today’s been pretty nice so far :] I really like being interested in someone…maybe its a little soon..but I definitely don’t intend on a relationship any time soon…but gawdayum why do boys have to be so cute?! hmm. he gets my brain working though, its nice. its different.
Just need to keep things in check.
I saw thunder and lightning at the beach today :] it was way...
Wow,
rachaelrevolution:
sh33na:
you guys are so cool. thanks for inviting me to party too.
PEOPLE IRRITATE ME. why dont i have a best friend >=/ …maybe because i cant stand anybody these days. I hate peeeeooooplllleeee.
I kind of assumed you made plans already. Sorry :(
We should hang out soon then
awwh it wasnt youuu. someone else.
but hey, i got a new pipe today:D<3!!!
Wow,
you guys are so cool. thanks for inviting me to party too.
PEOPLE IRRITATE ME. why dont i have a best friend >=/ …maybe because i cant stand anybody these days. I hate peeeeooooplllleeee.
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I
reallllly need a job…I think that would really help me with a lot of things…and I reallly need to start exercising…it would release so much built up energy and I would probably sleep so much better.
NEED TO MAKE CHANGES!!!!
I honestly wish things werent as easily said then done.
I wonder if you can find yoga or some type of workout video on youtube…hmmm……
Need to
think positive. I always think of the worst outcome and thats something that just makes you feel down before anything even happens. ‘Expect for the best, be prepared for the worst.’ Thats definitely what needs to be thought of. and when the worst happens to come around, i need to brush it off and stay chill. Its definitely hard, but after all of this every things gonna be so much...
hopes
for good sleeeep. i really need it. an alarm is going to be waking me up, at 9:30…but stillll. dang it. school, counseling, and a doctors appointment tomorrow. i guess its supposed to be sunny :) thats good.
being a girl sucks sometimes…these cramps are killlling me and my back! agh. i hope this heating pad makes it feel better…plus it should make me cozy
GOODNIIGHT.
SO COLD!
Its freeeezing! If it rains tonight I wouldnt be surprised if it snowed up in the mountains around here! If it does I definitely want to go see it soon :D I hope it does. Right now I’m stressing on homework because as always, I wait until the last minute….but if I want to graduate by January 21st I HAVE to do this!! Its all about motivation…I have to. I dont know what I’d...
I actually
went on a hike today. It was rather nice. My friend Arielle and I went on this random trail in Scotts Valley which is random because theres not really any cool trails in my town. This one was so cool! It was about a mile or so and super foresty. and we smoked a joint and a bowl :) Was very relaxing.
The rest of the day has been kind of boring. My head and ears hurt…and my throat kinda too....
BUT
things feel a bit better…well in myself as a person right in this moment. Went to bed before 1:30am and woke up at 5am and couldnt sleep again…so I’m prettty tired. But I’m just keeping in mind “breathe” and “time”. Because patients is everything right now, and its not something I have much of anymore. But I’m going to have to stretch them a...
“Love is a serious mental disease.”
– Plato (via reluctantbuddha) (via quote-book)
That must be it then. I’m sick with love.
This. Is. Draining.
Just
need to look up. and keep on going. I know which friends love me and would do almost anything to help me out. I miss a lot of them.
Definitely need to make some things higher on my priority list.
Just need to breathe…and do it.
I don't usually post my poems on here but I have...
rachaelrevolution:
I’ve only edited it once so far so bear with me here…
Distress
You know it’s not just a knot in your stomach, but a thousand knots, like fists with their fingers tied together with wire, a cold, splintering shock— the ants crawling through your veins that give you a permanent shiver, shaking atoms on your skin and your poor lips start to quiver… while some sick...
“I am tired with no desire to put together things that just fall apart.”
– “Shoot From the Hip” A Change of Pace
so tired. nobody is worth this much.